So some of you may know and some of you may not, but I sew strike offs of custom fabric. Its is super fun and it helps me get outside of my comfort zone as far as different prints go. If I didn’t do this, my entire wardrobe would probably be just polka dots and florals 😛
So anywho, I recently sewed up some seriously amazing brushed poly spandex for Fabric Anthropology. It is a super fun Alice and Wonderland print! In the spirit of pushing myself, I decided to try to use up every last bit of scrap and make myself some Scrundies. Now, I didn’t have quite enough fabric to make a full pair of scrundies and I was going to have to do a color-blocked front. Then I realized I had just enough fabric to create TWO fronts….oh yes….it was time to get outside my comfort zone again!
Cheekies is what they are called….underwear that isn’t a thong, but leaves a fair portion of your tush exposed. That’s right….a fair portion of MY tush…..expooooooooosed. I had to take pictures of these babies still.
The flat-lay came first. That was pretty easy.
Then…I had to put them on. Now I have gained weight recently and at a place I never thought I would be, size wise. It is frustrating for me as the weight gain is caused by medicines I take to make me feel better and able to move around and function. So I chose to love my body for what it is and continue to push forward, owning who I am and what my body looks like now, just taking another step in the right direction each day. You do what you can, right?
I tell you all that to say that when I put these cheekies on the first time, I wasn’t exactly happy with what the mirror was showing me. That happens more than I’d like to admit. The thing is, rather than bashing myself or hating my body, I try a little bit of gentleness instead. I treat my body the way I would want somebody else to treat theirs, with kindness, loves and sensitivity.
I quickly took of the cheekies and reconsidered what I was about to do because I wasn’t sure the world was ready to see of what I was seeing. Then, I took a deep breath, summoned all the courage in my body, set up my camera and tripod, and put them back on. I laid down on my bed and snuggled up with my dog. My husband helped me get the camera positioned so you could see the underwear, then I triggered the camera with my remote until I had pictures I was confident in.
This was not an easy process for me, but let me tell you just a bit about how freaking empowering it was! Holy cow! It has been soooo long since I have actually appreciated what I saw when I looked at my body. Now this is just a small portion of me, but being able to look at it and see something that looks beautiful to me, it was fabulous!
I encourage each and every one of you to go out and look at your body, love it, tell yourself how beautiful you are. Why? Because you are. You and your body, you’re beautiful!