So some of you may know and some of you may not, but I sew strike offs of custom fabric. Its is super fun and it helps me get outside of my comfort zone as far as different prints go. If I didn’t do this, my entire wardrobe would probably be just polka dots and florals 😛
So anywho, I recently sewed up some seriously amazing brushed poly spandex for Fabric Anthropology. It is a super fun Alice and Wonderland print! In the spirit of pushing myself, I decided to try to use up every last bit of scrap and make myself some Scrundies. Now, I didn’t have quite enough fabric to make a full pair of scrundies and I was going to have to do a color-blocked front. Then I realized I had just enough fabric to create TWO fronts….oh yes….it was time to get outside my comfort zone again!
Cheekies is what they are called….underwear that isn’t a thong, but leaves a fair portion of your tush exposed. That’s right….a fair portion of MY tush…..expooooooooosed. I had to take pictures of these babies still.
The flat-lay came first. That was pretty easy.
Then…I had to put them on. Now I have gained weight recently and at a place I never thought I would be, size wise. It is frustrating for me as the weight gain is caused by medicines I take to make me feel better and able to move around and function. So I chose to love my body for what it is and continue to push forward, owning who I am and what my body looks like now, just taking another step in the right direction each day. You do what you can, right?
I tell you all that to say that when I put these cheekies on the first time, I wasn’t exactly happy with what the mirror was showing me. That happens more than I’d like to admit. The thing is, rather than bashing myself or hating my body, I try a little bit of gentleness instead. I treat my body the way I would want somebody else to treat theirs, with kindness, loves and sensitivity.
I quickly took of the cheekies and reconsidered what I was about to do because I wasn’t sure the world was ready to see of what I was seeing. Then, I took a deep breath, summoned all the courage in my body, set up my camera and tripod, and put them back on. I laid down on my bed and snuggled up with my dog. My husband helped me get the camera positioned so you could see the underwear, then I triggered the camera with my remote until I had pictures I was confident in.
This was not an easy process for me, but let me tell you just a bit about how freaking empowering it was! Holy cow! It has been soooo long since I have actually appreciated what I saw when I looked at my body. Now this is just a small portion of me, but being able to look at it and see something that looks beautiful to me, it was fabulous!
I encourage each and every one of you to go out and look at your body, love it, tell yourself how beautiful you are. Why? Because you are. You and your body, you’re beautiful!
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Kelly
I so love this post. I too take a ton of medications for a long list of auto-immune diseases that I have. I’ve put on weight & don’t like what I see but I do as you do & try to love what I see. Thank you for being such a good role model and beautiful soul <3
<3 It is a rough road and has really caused me to redefine what is important to do and to see. You rock!!!
Love your post. I have terminal cancer (secondary breast cancer) & am about to loose my hair. Last time I had breast cancer I covered up my head because I was worried others would find it offensive. This time I will remember your post and go bald finished feel like it. Gotta do it before I die. It now or never. Thanks for an awesome post. I hope your prognosis is good. Sending good thoughts. By the way there would be lots of people out there who would like a body as good as yours.
<3 <3 <3 I want to hug you!! I would love to see you and your beautiful bald head! You're right, though, that it is now or never and I love that this is your attitude! <3 Keep your head up, enjoy your time, and take all of those risks! <3
Kelly, you have always been such an inspiration to me. You’re beautiful inside and out! Never stop being you.
Thank you so much Mary! <3 <3
I struggle with body image and making my own clothes helps me celebrate and make friends with myself. You’re bootyful! Thanks for representing ❤
Making clothes for my body has been huge on this journey to loving my body also! <3
I’m too waspy to really cry, but this made me tear up and took my breath for a moment. You are lovely. Thank you.
<3 <3 Thank you so much for reading and opening yourself up <3 You are amazing!
We love you Kelly and your cute bum ❤ seriously fan Girling over here! You inspired me to step out of my comfort zone! Without you flaunting your goodies I probably wouldn’t of even thought of posting pictures of me in my creations. Can’t wait to see more Kelly porn…I mean pics 😘
Hahahaha!!!! Too funny! I love seeing so many ladies, yourself included, loving on themselves and sharing what they love to do! <3
Gorgeous Kelly, shake that thang! On a side note, where about in Ohio do you live? I am in Southeast Michigan.
Shake it like a polaroid picture! I live in Saint Clairsville, which is just across the river from Wheeling, West Virginia and about an hour and a half south of Canton/Akron.
Crap, was wishing you were closer!